Young and Confused-Rin
Aug 15, 2010 1:33:16 GMT -9
Post by tundra on Aug 15, 2010 1:33:16 GMT -9
Rin's Journal
Entry 1-August 12th, 2020 2:30 pm, Aunt and Uncle's house
You knwo at one point I was care free, always smiling and laughing, probably a person anyone would expect who could easily befriend anyone. Well at one point I was. Those eyars seem so long ago, a chapter in my life in which is no longer what I am. But who am I? Why am I even here? These are what trouble my thoughts. Yes I am a teen, like others I try to find my place but yet only find myself feeling like an outsider, a freak, no one who will be accepted. Perhaps I am, perhaps not.
But as many say you change as you get older. Boy are they right! Now I just feel like shit half the time, since middle school at least. Before I use to be a big softy, letting everyone walk all voer me like a doormat, well no longer. Now I hardly talk, I've become a silent and quiet person, shy still but I am no push over. I hear some talk behind my back, like I can't hear them well they sure get a surprise after I chew them out for it. Sometimes it's a wonder if people even think before they speak.
Guess it has to also do with the stress of my parents fighting, bickering at one another and they turn around being all buddy buddy again. It's irritating! My siblings see it too but they blow it off, knowing it will be fine. And what if it isn't? They could split up and only put more strain on betweent hem and us. Hell there is already between me and my mother, more so with my step father, mean I love them but it is getting old real quick. But I don't see thm often anymore, not since coming to Midnight Industries or The Order.
How odd this place is. They approached me at the car wash back in Alabama, offering me a better job that could pay well. At first I told them to shove it. But they were persistent. Finally I told them I would come, agreeing to se ewhat they offered. Luckily I some family living out here so I have neded up staying with my Aunt and Uncle here in Colorado, but I keep anything having to do with The Order a secret. Theonly thign is I have been assigned to being the driver of the AI called Helios. I am not sure how this will go or if this was a good idea, I only know this will take time. Whether Helios is adapting to a new driver is beyond me, I only know that things are going to get complicated.
Entry 1-August 12th, 2020 2:30 pm, Aunt and Uncle's house
You knwo at one point I was care free, always smiling and laughing, probably a person anyone would expect who could easily befriend anyone. Well at one point I was. Those eyars seem so long ago, a chapter in my life in which is no longer what I am. But who am I? Why am I even here? These are what trouble my thoughts. Yes I am a teen, like others I try to find my place but yet only find myself feeling like an outsider, a freak, no one who will be accepted. Perhaps I am, perhaps not.
But as many say you change as you get older. Boy are they right! Now I just feel like shit half the time, since middle school at least. Before I use to be a big softy, letting everyone walk all voer me like a doormat, well no longer. Now I hardly talk, I've become a silent and quiet person, shy still but I am no push over. I hear some talk behind my back, like I can't hear them well they sure get a surprise after I chew them out for it. Sometimes it's a wonder if people even think before they speak.
Guess it has to also do with the stress of my parents fighting, bickering at one another and they turn around being all buddy buddy again. It's irritating! My siblings see it too but they blow it off, knowing it will be fine. And what if it isn't? They could split up and only put more strain on betweent hem and us. Hell there is already between me and my mother, more so with my step father, mean I love them but it is getting old real quick. But I don't see thm often anymore, not since coming to Midnight Industries or The Order.
How odd this place is. They approached me at the car wash back in Alabama, offering me a better job that could pay well. At first I told them to shove it. But they were persistent. Finally I told them I would come, agreeing to se ewhat they offered. Luckily I some family living out here so I have neded up staying with my Aunt and Uncle here in Colorado, but I keep anything having to do with The Order a secret. Theonly thign is I have been assigned to being the driver of the AI called Helios. I am not sure how this will go or if this was a good idea, I only know this will take time. Whether Helios is adapting to a new driver is beyond me, I only know that things are going to get complicated.
